Well what can i say really, another rollercoaster week gone down. All in all though i'd say things are definately starting to look up for me now. I've just finished my first full week as PERMANENT staff in my job, I'm a lot more confident and happy than i used to be an i actually feel healthier now too.

On the downside, last Wednesday it was 5 years since my Grandad died. It still upsets me but at least now i can think about the good times without dwelling on the bad ones. I think i might take that poem to the cemetery one day.

Oooh i can't wait, it's only just over 10 weeks till my next holiday!! Yay! i really REALLY need to be somewhere sunny, i feel happier when it's sunny! An it's only just over 7 weeks till my birthday too an i know Andy's gonna spoil me rotten coz i can just tell the way he keeps sayin things heehee....im hopin he takes me to Alma de Cuba for a meal coz i likes it there, i drinks free shots on or leaning over the bar there :D